Tuesday, February 23, 2010

It's a Baby

That's right, even though I have not mentioned it (except once in my Christmas letter post) I am having a baby. More than that, I'm really happy and excited about it. That being said, my baby and pregnancy have been overshadowed by the sickness of Mom. I have just been so preoccupied with all my emotions that have come with the news of her brain tumer, and I've barely given my sweet baby a second thought.
I'm sorry baby.
I love you baby.
Almost the only times I have thought of my baby lately have been with a heavy heart, because I know my sweet Mom will not be able to hold my sweet baby in this life, and that makes me want to cry. befor Mom lost her speech completly, she told Dad she just had to hold on till the baby was born, and she had to see the baby. But it doesn't look like that is the Lords plan for her, she is so close.
Mom came with me and Craig to the Ultrasound last week, and she got to see my baby! As you can imagine, that was an emotional moment for us all.
How special.
How blessed.
Back to baby. The moment I found out I was expecting a baby, I had a deep feeling in my heart that told me I would be blessed with another boy...and I've known it would be a very special boy ever since. I love this baby so much, and know that he has a very special spirit. He will come into our family at the perfect time, when we all need his sweet perfect spirit most. He will help us heal.
How spcial.
How blessed.