Tuesday, February 23, 2010

It's a Baby

That's right, even though I have not mentioned it (except once in my Christmas letter post) I am having a baby. More than that, I'm really happy and excited about it. That being said, my baby and pregnancy have been overshadowed by the sickness of Mom. I have just been so preoccupied with all my emotions that have come with the news of her brain tumer, and I've barely given my sweet baby a second thought.
I'm sorry baby.
I love you baby.
Almost the only times I have thought of my baby lately have been with a heavy heart, because I know my sweet Mom will not be able to hold my sweet baby in this life, and that makes me want to cry. befor Mom lost her speech completly, she told Dad she just had to hold on till the baby was born, and she had to see the baby. But it doesn't look like that is the Lords plan for her, she is so close.
Mom came with me and Craig to the Ultrasound last week, and she got to see my baby! As you can imagine, that was an emotional moment for us all.
How special.
How blessed.
Back to baby. The moment I found out I was expecting a baby, I had a deep feeling in my heart that told me I would be blessed with another boy...and I've known it would be a very special boy ever since. I love this baby so much, and know that he has a very special spirit. He will come into our family at the perfect time, when we all need his sweet perfect spirit most. He will help us heal.
How spcial.
How blessed.


Jason and Dana said...

Susan, I'm sitting here crying, but I really believe your baby is coming at the perfect time. I know this is not really comparable, but a lady I served in Primary with had an awful miscarriage, and another woman had just had a baby. When the one who had the miscarriage came back to church and held the newborn during Primary and I could literally SEE her healing. Babies are like magic, and your new little baby is a miracle. Congrats on your newest boy.
I'm so sorry about your mom. Every time I think about her I start to cry. I'm so lucky to have known her.

Jenny Bobo said...

I can't wait to meet this sweet boy. He is very lucky to be coming to such an incredible family. Love you.

Darci and Ryan said...

So neat that your mom could go with you. Fun to have another boy!

Lambsons said...

Susan. I am so happy for that you are having a little boy and another sweet spirit to join your wonderful home. I know you probably already know this but the gospel and eternal families are wonderful and your mom will be able to see that sweet boy before he gets here because of what the lord blesses us with. Heaven is a great place to say I am so glad to see you again and I pray your life on earth will be full of joy!!

Tasha said...

Susan! I am so excited that you are having a BOY! So many many boys! I just wish that we were closer so that our kids could be friends! I am SO glad that your mom got to go to the ultrasound with you! How wonderful! I know that she will get to hold that baby whether she is here or there. I know that boy will be special for that reason! I am sure that she will pass on her love and wisdom to him! I love you guys and am so excited for you! Please give your mom and dad my love!

Tenae said...

This is a beautiful post. I love you, your mom and your new little baby. I know your heart is heavy...you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Nichole said...

I know of lots of boys named Leslie or even Les.


The Five Moores said...

He sure is going to be an amazing addition to your sweet family! But part of it is because he will have two of the best parents. We love you two and your always in our prayers

romriell_clan said...

Susan you are so amazing! We cannot wait to meet this wonderful little man, fresh from all the hugs and kisses we know grandma will have given him as she sends him to your loving arms. We LOVE YOU!!

Ryann said...

Hi Susan this is Ryann Loftus (hope you remember me). I came across your blog from another one and when I read this my heart sank with grief for you and your family but for happiness that a new baby will also bring.

I know the pain of losing a mother and my heart and prayers go out to you and your family.

The Garvin's said...

I love, love, love what Nicole said. She said exactly what i was thinking, just didn't know exactly how to say it. You are amazing and your WHOLE family is in our thoughts and prayers. You can tell your mom is very special to a lot of people. How lucky are you to have a mom like that! Good luck with your pregnancy too:) I'm adding you to my blog if that's okay:)